I am a person who exerts a lot of effort into something I’m doing, may it be for school or other activities. I remember when I was in my second year in High School English class, we are asked to create our own newscast. Instead of doing it live inside the classroom, I made it into a taped one and edited the video on my computer. I must say that everyone was satisfied with my work. But one thing, I am not competing with anyone. It’s just I want my work to be something impressive in order to receive high grades. I just love what I’m doing and thats makes my work good, I think. It is just sad on my part that people are thinking I am competing with them although I don’t have any intentions of doing so. I just hate it when people say to me that they would be doing this and that just to make their impressive and good than mine. I hate it when people think that we’re in a competition. I mean, they don’t have to say those “words of arrogance” to me because I’m working alone without belittling them. Why do I have to write this stuff here? I decided to write this here because it’s happening in almost everything I do that people could see. I created this online journal as the outlet of my thoughts and feelings. This was not created to make people become insecure of me. This was not created to step on other people’s ego. I’m a simple person –I’m not arrogant, I don’t “broadcast” my possessions with my friends and schoolmates. In fact, I am contented on what I have and I’m just trying to maximize all the resources I have. I am doing things because I need and want to do them. I’m not a person who would do something in order to make people envious of me. I remember one time when I was quietly eating at our school canteen and I brought with me my Starbucks tumbler which I personalized and suddenly, someone came up to me and told me, “Pasalamat ka hindi ko dala ang tumbler ko, limited edition iyon. (Be thankful that I didn’t bring my tumbler with me. That’s a limited edition tumbler.)” I have to admit that I have my own “dream possession list” (just in my mind, not a real list) which is a list of things I want to have but I am not easily get envious on someone who have those things. There was a time when I was chit-chatting with my friends inside our classroom because our teacher was absent and didn’t leave any activity. I cannot understand why someone would stay in front of me and would flaunt his iPod and PDA and seems like saying, “Mainggit ka… (Envy me).” It really irritates me! First, I don’t believe he owns that PDA when in fact he’s using a Nokia 8210 everyday . Even though I don’t have those earthly possessions, I don’t care because I know what I should do in school –TO STUDY!

Grrr… I forgot to deposit my payment for the renewal of this domain on the bank yesterday! This domain would expire really SOON! And Holy Week would start tomorrow -meaning banks would be close if I wouldn’t deposit the payment on or before Wednesday / Thursday.